Compart-mental-ization

Wanted to write, but had a couple of bad days at office. So bad, that I couldn't even sleep properly. So writing took a backseat. I have realized that I cant compartmentalize now, almost at all. Earlier, I could leave office and not worry whether even if the building fell down. Now, I cant leave the office behind. It stays with me day and night. I need to relearn how to do it. My life is getting complicateder and complicateder, and I don't see anyway I can avoid it. Maybe meditation would help?

Back again? I hope so!

I think now I am ready to write again. At least, I dont break into a cold sweat every time I stare at a blank white screen. Moreover, I can think again. For quite a few days, that hadn't been possible. I have thought of a couple of stories, one short, one a little longer, that seem to be quite interesting, thought they are in the nascent state.

Today's agenda: Sit in front of the laptop, stare at the white screen and not panic. At least for 2 hours. Type whatever nonsense that comes to mind. This will get me writing somewhat decently by Saturday.

An uncontrolled hiatus

I have given up on writing, at least for the next few weeks. Too many things going on, and I cannot concentrate on writing. In the next few weeks, I hope things settle down enough for me to ascertain whether I can write or not. At this point, the moment I sit to write down, my brain shuts off, the computer screen blurs and I start to hyperventilate. Same with reading, or any other activity where I need to stimulate my mind. Cant get beyond the first three lines. The only thing that helps is the TV, which I can watch and while away my time in insipid mind numbing entertainment. I seem to get on well enough with office work though, and I am afraid to actually state what this may mean.

So, no writing in the near future for me, and not for lack of trying!

But as one famous charactor said famously, "I will be back."